Life Model Works has made significant impacts in key relationships this year, and the following testimony is proof that the Life Model brings joy to marriages!
Feeling trapped, my wife Vicki and I called Life Model counselor Conrad Beaulieu, who explained that progress in our low-joy relationship would require that a mutual friend join us in counseling, a joy-giver who loved us both, to help us feel safe and supported enough to share our true feelings. Little did we know this would include freedom to loudly express anger and face the hurt of accumulated pain.
Through faithful listening, care for both of us, and prayer, Conrad and our friend were able to both weep and rejoice with us (Romans 12:15), gradually restoring love from fear.
But could we stand on our own? Vicki and I had lifelong patterns of resorting to and defending, our own understandings of problems that arose between us. Sure, we could just avoid talking, but we wanted more than a functional but frozen relationship, or mere peaceful co-existence.
As Vicki and I looked honestly at our relationship, we realized we had created the perfect storm. I loved Vicki enough to try and help her, but because of an intimidating childhood influence in her life, even my gentle attempts came off as condescension and drove her away.
Then, because of my childhood experience of abandonment, her withdrawal triggered fear, anger, self-pity, and blame in me.
Here’s where Restarting helped me unravel a central dilemma: we had become co-dependent and, little did we realize that, when triggered by pain, sharing fear was the only way we knew how to be together.
Khouri explained (Session 3) what at first seemed impossible, that we would actually “help each other” learn to return to joy from fearful, negative emotions. “We get to carry each other.” Oh great, I’m thinking, that’ll go well!
Then, as if reading my mind, he said: “Some of you are probably saying, ‘Yah, but you don’t know my wife!’ And wives are saying, ‘You don’t have to live with this guy!’”
Khouri is aware of the paradox: “Carrying people to fix their problems or emotions, or carrying them to fix our own problems, is called co-dependency.” The goal of restoration is totally different, he says.
When we’re glad to be together strictly for love’s sake, to build joy and even just to be quiet together, “when we’re carrying each other’s burdens, synchronizing and sharing mutual mind site in a secure, joyful relationship, we’re not co-dependent,” said Khouri. “In fact, that’s how we stop being co-dependent.”
I’m still unlearning and rewiring old thought patterns, taming old needs to intervene. This leaves room for us to imagine God’s smile, and freedom for each of us to look to Him to lead us.
Learning to hold or carry my loved ones with what the Life Model calls “God sight”—with joyous anticipation, hope, and rest, trusting in His redemptive arc for our lives—has made all the difference.
I’ve let God heal my sense of isolation and pain and learned not to trample those I love. I’ve learned that my good intentions, and even wise and quiet words, are a poor substitute for God-room, space left for my loved ones to hear from their Maker for themselves, and figure things out in a way that makes sense to them. As I make room, He fills the void.
If you’re in the thick of your own cluster bomb of emotional triggers, or in a painful hole out from which you wonder how you’ll ever climb, I want to encourage you. With the help of skilled listeners and joy-building friends, fear loses its grip. God is invested in us, and as we’re promised, “Love never fails.”
I’m learning as a gentle protector-in-training, resting when overwhelmed, and content, if necessary, to say nothing but through joyful eyes of love. And guess who notices? The other day Vicki said, “I like the new you!”
The funny thing is, I do too!
Special thanks to Todd and Vicki Svanoe for sharing their joy story. This illustration demonstrates how Life Model Works is bringing joy to the world, and this is only possible because generous people support this work financially. Please prayerfully consider supporting this ministry with a year-end gift so other marriages can experience joy in the year ahead.
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